Hello my little apple pies cooling in a window.
Welcome back to my blog. Whether you’re here for a hate read or a love read, I am happy to see you.
Today I wanted to chat a bit about Supplements. Specifically the supplements that I use to cope with a little thing called PMDD which has been made worse due to the pandemic.
‘PMDD causes severe irritability, depression, or anxiety in the week or two before your period starts. Symptoms usually go away two to three days after your period starts.’
I have this little issue and have had since my early 20’s. Every month 11 days before my period I turn into a small but dangerous werewolf. The condition causes me to react to my shifting hormones in ways that feel utterly out of my control. There’s treatments for this but they are generally birth control (pass) or anti-depressants, which would be fine but I am happy and thriving the rest of the time so it wouldn’t make sense.
Every month I prepare for these 11 days (referred to the Luteal Phase) like I am going to war. I have to change my diet, up my exercise, plan creative projects or tasks around this time. I am incapable of productivity. I sit and stare and cry and panic. Historically all of the worst fights I’ve ever had with boyfriends are during this fateful 11 days.
Back before the Pandy, I was a living breathing person who worked full time, went to the gym, attended university part-time, had a huge group of friends and was just overall happy and distracted. This has obviously changed. Now I am at home, that’s it. Just sittin’ around at home, thinking.
The pandemic has done a number on our collective mental health. Isolation, junior chickens, netflix, online shopping, existential crises, loneliness, fear of dying are all ever present shifting considerations throughout each day. Generally I am happy and rational and functional but for 11 days every month, it gets dark. I get extremely anxious. I get paranoid, I get profoundly depressed and no amount of exercise, salmon, positive thinking or hugs can make me feel better. I have however, found some supplemental things to slow the grinding gears of the walls that feel as if they are closing in on me.
Now let me start by saying that I am straight up not a doctor, not even close. I am an out of work actor, so really don’t take my advice on this and especially don’t sue me if you do and it doesn’t work out.
Ok with that disclaimer dutifully dispensed, here are the supplements I use to cope.
A magnesium based supplement. I can’t tell if this stuff actually works or if I just think it does and that calms me down. I used to drink it at work while serving on busy days. It helps with racing thoughts and pounding heartbeat, it reintroduces chill when you have functioning with below zero.
This is an old favorite and yes it is caffeine which is BAD, but for whatever reason, the stimulant in it gives me a rise without a fall. I am perked up without the gigantic coffee-dooms I get from too many cups.
I am simply a better person when I am drinking this. It’s messy, its hard to make, it’s expensive but it makes me ….euphoric. I usually switch out coffee 8-10 days before my period with Matcha and it helps. I dance more, that’s the most important thing right.
Discovered this after a tricky breakup when I couldn’t really sleep or calm down. I tried smoking actual weed but it makes me a total fucking weirdo. CBD oil is cheap, effective and also great for cramps.
Ok this is technically illegal. The bag literally says ‘not for human consumption’ so I am indeed a bad girl but …goddamn. You have to be careful with it, people use this to get off heroin. Do some research and really sniff it out before you take the plunge. When I take it it affects me like adderall. It eradicts my (dangerously) high emotions so I can focus on tasks at hand. I feel like a robot when I use it and sometimes that is exactly what I need.
Ancient, mysterious. I don’t understand this stuff or what it does but when I put it in a coffee or smoothie it makes me feel sexy? I don’t know why. It’s energizing.
Exercise, yoga, meditation help too.
I’ve found the anxiety has lessened since I deleted Instagram and the weather is getting better. We’re still deep into the Pandy but any little bit of anything definitely helps and these little supplements help me. Hopefully if you decide to use them they work for you too.
Are you dealing with anxiety? Have any coping mechanisms? Share them with me below. Any advice is more than welcome.
That’s it for me sweet sirs. I am off to walk my bike to the boardwalk for a ride because I don’t have a helmet and am too afraid of biking on Toronto city streets.
See you soon,